I'm feeling doubtful and perhaps lost on where I'm heading.
When I'm not sure of a change, I'd always choose to stay.
I know this is what I get for taking the easier way out in the beginning.
Now, all I experience is a long struggle which consists of my own mind games
and almost losing myself in it.
The aftermath is working it out and up and...I'm still figuring...
It kills sometimes to hope.
Still, the going is tough.

I've learnt to not let bitterness take away my strength and weaken my faith,
and never allow pain to dishearten me;
But rather let myself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
I love you because I know no other way.

Today, I understand that no one changes no matter how much you want them to and how much you believe they can,
they just don't do it.
No matter what you do, even if you force it on them,
you lose because it has become imperfect,
wrong and ugly.