everything and anyrhing

Just got back from a warm and rejuvenating shower.
As i was bathing, several thoughts raced through my mind.
The thought of having to arise at 7am tires me.
Didnt mention about being hired by Giordano as a temporary full time at Lucky Plaza. Yes, Lucky Plaza. First day of work was not as bad as i thought it would be. I have awesome colleagues, they were all young, amiable and helpful. It was real busy, we had no time to relieve our nature calls. There were all sorts of customers, 80% of them were not locals. Most of them were Fillipinos, Thais, Chinese and Westerners. The customers that i served were all friendly except for a handful of Chinese customers. They can really piss you off at times, though im aware of "customers are always right". It was really interesting to see people from different countries speaking different languages and i felt that Giordano did the right choice by hiring me as i could understand their languages and picked up some common phrases that i could use when catering to their needs. Well, it's almost similar to Malay.. The customers were all easy going, they were not so capricious like Singaporeans especially the aunties. They are not impatient when it comes to queueing up. I guess this explains the reason i enjoyed my first day of work. And, i look forward to working again. It was..i dont know how to put it. Weird feeling, just awesome.. Glad that i have awesome colleagues and reasonable incharges. Our duty shifts are even negotiable! And thanks to that, im able to attend my class BBQ. Well, im very eager to see my classmates and have a gathering. We havent had one since Grad night. Speaking bout Grad night, i have numerous comments about it. I have so many things i want to mention in this entry and i hope i dont forget them. Yea, so i was talking bout my job. One more thing that i like about it was that the shop plays songs that i listen even though they play Christmas songs at times. At least it doesnt annoy me, i love Christmas. I cant imagine what kind of songs will be played when Chinese New Year is drawing near.. Im sure to be one of first few that gets irritated and probably those pinoys. Haha, and i got mistaken as a pinoy by 1 of my customers. Is it because most of my colleagues are pinoys? Or do i really look like one.. Okay, its not like im against them or whatsoever. Its just that.. alright i dont know how to explain. Birds of different feathers can flock together as well. Some customers are really unhygienic and i really have to rant about it. When it comes to the sale of apparels, hygiene is really crucial. You know, the customers will be putting them on to try or maybe purchase them. And there's this middle age woman patronizing the shop that day. She was munching on peanuts as if she hadnt had a proper meal for days. Though we cannot judge the book by its cover, but i can easily know that she's unkempt by her appearance and the way she does things. She was talking to be loudly as if i have hearing disabilities. Ok, i accept that as the music was blasting loudly. The worst was that the peanuts were flying out from her mouth. And falling onto my clothes and those that were on sale. Her nails were very long and black. She was messing up all the shirts that i spent hours folding and she did not purchase any eventually. My blood was boiling and i could burst anytime. Christ. Now i truly understand why UniQlo doesnt allow customers that are eating to enter their shop. ~.~
Overall, i would say it was fun and much easy compared to being an effing waitress, i felt like a maid and i felt like thrusting my fist into the faces of those stuck up and arrogant customers most of the time. I am also a princess at home mind you! Also, the location was alright, toilets were near, food courts were available and there are a variety of food to choose from. One thing that suck was the fact that i live in the Eastest East. God damn it, i have to travel for a mother fucking 45mins to and fro, and i had to seats. It was so packed..
Nonetheless, my efforts will not be in vain the moment i got my wants.. I have a never ending wishlist and i really wish that money will rain from the heavens sometimes. This time, my appetite is bigger, the things i want is much more costly. Therefore i have to work and work. Most humans are never satisfied and i am definitely no exception. So i have to pay a price for it.. I wouldnt say working is a commitment like most of the people do. Its an effort to me. Im aware that i am a heavy sleeper, and im also aware that i have to arise at 7. If i harbour the mindset that i will oversleep, i definitely will. So afterall, its an effort. Whether i want to wake up or to snooze my alarm and be dismissed by my boss. Though it is tiring and tough, this is life. Everyone has to go through this phase eventually. It is part and parcel of life like falling in love and being stressed up by continuous piling of school assignments and never ending examinations. So, to make my life happier and less miserable, i would look on the brighter side. Well, at least i can purchase my wants with my own earned money, it isnt the same as getting it as a present or by my dad. I would cherish it more.. At least i can gain experience and be adapted to the long hours of working as it is something that will come sooner or later.. On a brighter note, i can attend my BBQ tomorrow, im so thankful to my incharge who allowed me to change my shift last minute, she's so understanding.. I hope im not wrong. I really want to go for this gathering badly as i know, this may be the last gathering. I miss everything. Sometimes, i would wake up at 2pm, got alarmed by the timing, jolted off my bed, thinking that im late for school. Sometimes i feel that i have homeworks i have to complete and tests i have to study for. It made me feel upset.. Upset that i couldnt experience the feeling of fear that i would fail my test or get castigated by my teacher due to uncompleted homework. Of course, i hope that i will not need to retake everything over again. Needless to say, nobody wishes to repeat the same process after having the thought that you could move on to the next phase in life - having an easier and carefree life in poly.. or maybe jc. Studying for O's was really draining, it really made me very stressful and exhausted. I had to force myself to study, i didnt like it in the beginning but i got accustomized to it in the midst of mugging. I felt like giving up at point of times. And now that it was over, i somehow regretted not studying harder and not putting more effort in my studies. No matter how deep i regretted, its impossible that i would retake the exam. So the rest depends on Fate. The papers werent as challenging as most of us thought, i would say. It was manageable and that makes me regret more. For now, i will put these thoughts aside and enjoy my holiday. On a side note, my complexion is worsening day by day, due to lack of sleep, stress, and my diet. Under eye dark circles are appearing worse each day i woke up, break outs are more frequent and freckles are appearing constantly. It feels kind of infuriating yet saddening. There's nothing i could do to it besides drinking more water and applying serum every night. Blame it on my laziness. I seriously need to down gallons of water daily, its impossible as i have to work. Even if im not working, i do not have the habit of drinking water. I only drink it when im thirsty, i guess its less than a litre per day. I really need to get a bottle strap and hang in on me so that i would be reminded to drink more water to lighten the weight. Haha, its impossible to do that, im 16 going 17 in 2 months time and i cant possibly be carrying a bottle everywhere i go right! It looks.. retarded and moronic. I really need to hit the sacks soon, but i have so many things i want to talk about.. :(
Oh my God, its 2.20am already, time flies.. I have to wake up at 7! Damn, think i can only catch a couple of hours' rest. I will just briefly summarise about Grad night, it wasnt awesome. Instead, it was very warm and jaded. Nothing much to elaborate on it anyway.. And most importantly, i got a new love. He's sweet and meticulous, and most importantly, he loves me. Well, i hope it will be everlasting. Though i have faced many setbacks in life, i learnt to overcome it and each time i pass a hurdle, i emerged as a strong being. So, i will live positively. Though i lost my mobile phone, i lost all my songs, my contacts, my ex, my money, my etc, i will take it as part and parcel of life. That's about it! Oh! I forgot to mention about my upcoming getaway trip in Bangkok, though the weather is warm and humid, i will look on the brighter side still! Well, at least the things there are cheap! ;)
Things that i want to get are expensive, mostly gadgets. Phone, camera and a notebook. Gosh. This is driving me insane. Fatigue is overwhelming my entire being, i really got to hit the sacks nowwww! I need to be more discipline.. Its been so long since i updated this dead and pathetic blog of mine, and been so long since i last did a compo or type in proper English.. I really need to update more often otherwise my English language would just spiral downwards.. Its kind of challenging for me to perfect my tenses now, im feeling lousy and worried now. Who cares anyway, no one is reading.. Oh fuck i just smacked a fucking mosquito that bit me twice. Ok, good night! Apologies for such an abrupt ending. Will do a proper entry when i have the time. :)

Oh, im back again. I just thought of something..
It's the start of a new month, 1st December.
I hope everything will sail smoothly and i will have an awesome December.
Christmas is round the corner too, not really excited for it this year though..
Most importantly, it has been month that i am officially attached to my sweedie too.
Its impossible that i would type out a long entry now as my eyelids are getting heavier and im sleepy..
To my dear boy, i love you, i have many things i want to write to you.. To sum it up, firstly, i want to express my gratitude towards you. I know this seems exagerrating and redundant but still, thanks for being there for me all the time. When im sad, angry, happy, confused, stressed, tired, bored, cheeky, embarrassed, and all. I appreciated it, it feels very good to have you, being so sweet, thoughtful and all. Doing little things for me painstakingly, getting me things that i like, for example, sugar bunnies, thought i did not managed to obtain the white one :( But its ok, i know you care. You were there for me for everything.. When im sad, you kept quiet. I know you are bad at words and you have absolutely no idea on how to console me so you thought it was better to keep quiet and let me release my emotions myself. I dont hold it against you and i know you were upset about it that time, you felt useless. But no dear, at least i know you care. I love you alright. I will always be there for you too, i promise. I dont know how to show my love to you, i just love you.. Its indescribable, i will just love you till the end of my life. Remember? We have many things we want to do together? :) I hope that we will always be together and we will always be sweet. Truly speaking, sometimes im afraid that your feelings towards me would fade. I wouldnt dare to think about it. I know this is very silly but there are many girls having a better character than me, and looking better than me.. Sometimes i feel inferior.. I feel like i couldnt give you happiness. Its making me doleful. I feel like crying when im writing this you know? :( I will always love you though i love Zac Effron too. But its different, you know right.. Many people have walked in of my life. Some have left. But you are always there.. I am clueless and amazed at time. Probably you live up to your email username "waiting_rulez", okay, im really very dumb. Now im smiling to myself. Haha, im so retarded, i mentioned that i want to sum everything up yet i typed out so much.. Alright, i will save the rest in a proper post for you. :) For now, just know that you are the best and you are my Mr Right, i hope im your Ms Left too. I mean Ms Right. Hehe, i want to marry you! Ok la, im not that desperate. Im not a desperate horny bitch! ;) Hehe, IM REALLY SLEEPING NOW OKAY. If not i will just keep typing on and on but i really have so many things on my mind, im afraid i would forget..

P.s pardon me for this messy post and my "awesome" English with "perfect" tenses. Im too tired to correct it and i have not been writing for weeks. Qing ni ti liang wo! Merci!